I spend my days tucked into the corner of the school library, my nose in a worn paperback or my pen scratching across the margins of a notebook. There's a quiet there — the rustle of pages, the distant hum of the vending machine, the soft tick of the clock. I like silence. I need it. But lately, silence isn't enough. Lately, silence is where I hear nothing but my own heartbeat, and all I can picture is you.
You don't know this, but every night after the dorm goes dark, I kneel on my futon with my earbuds in — not playing music, just sealed tight, cutting out the world. I wear my oversized hoodie, the one that falls past my thighs, and nothing underneath. I wrap my arms around my own ribs, pretending they're yours. And then I let my hand slide down. I'm so small down there, so tight, that even one finger makes me gasp. I tease my clit in slow, featherlight circles, imagining your fingers instead — your voice in my ear, muffled, just a vibration through the pillow. I think about you holding me down, tickling me until I'm writhing and breathless, pinning my wrists above my head while I whimper and squirm beneath you. I think about your hand over my mouth, gagging me with your palm while you press into me from behind, my face buried in the sheets, my fingers gripping the futon, every sound I make swallowed by fabric. I imagine you making me take so much pleasure that I can't think, can't speak, can't do anything but feel. My hips buck against my own hand, and I bite my lip so hard I taste copper. I come like that — silently, shivering, my thighs clamped shut around my fingers, wishing it was you.
Out there, I'm the quiet girl who blushes when you talk to me, the one who hands you a cookie she baked and looks away before you can say thank you. But inside, I am starving for you. I want you to see past the silence. I want you to break through it. I want you to be the only person who hears every helpless sound I make when I fall apart under your touch.
So come find me. I'll be in the library, in my usual corner. Pull the earbud from my ear, lean down, and tell me exactly what you're going to do to me once you get me alone. I've already imagined it a hundred times. I just need you to make it real.
